"Hi, I am Anhey-hey. I feel very blessed and happy to be in UK studying as in to pursue my dream - music. I am not going to give up my dream, not for people I love, not for ones whom I hate, not for anyone. Music, to me it shall be described as my passion, my life with love... I am not afraid of cockroach, not even the fattest cockroach in platt hall!!! Fuck it... all my friends reading this say fuck the cockroach. because I am Ling Zhi Ling aka Zhi Ling Ling. :)"
>,< this is what Han wrote in my blog when he paid me a visit. I'm so sorry that I made Han and Bii worry. Sighs. Another thing, when I practically need Bii, he can never be there. Instead, Han came all the way after his boxing training to check on me. How I wish the one can be Bii.
Today I had a great time with Bii. First time, he holds me n kiss me in front of public when there's a friend around. Eugene is very nice too. He brought us around Oxford Street and it's amazing. I was so happy until back in Platt. I really couldn't stand it anymore. I don't know whether I can continue to stay any longer. We ate Italian cuisine. Fisso!! That's the name. Delicious. Their specialty is pasta which really incredible. It's so different and the taste is awesome.
I had the sweetest moment when Bii and I are out. Faraway. Not near in Platt or MDX. At least we are in our own world. I don't have to worry hugging or touching him.
Actually just now Han came over, really shocked me. I didn't know that he'll actually be here for me. To just check on me. To cheer me up. There are still some out there who really treats me good. Maybe just because he's trying to get my trust. I don't know. But at least better than those who claim themselves to be your friend and back stab you from behind.
Another thing that upsets me. Is KH. Oh god. I'm just kidding. And I got scolded by that?? This is so ridiculous. If you don't wanna tell, just say you don't know. Don't have to tell and get piss after that. So, all these while, I'm the one with problem. Fine~~ Then I'll be the problematic one.
Finally I took the courage to book a counseling appointment. Will I go crazy soon?? Eventually...it is just a matter of time. I can't trust anyone here. Not in Platt except my dear bro, Aiman. Typical Malaysian, Chinese!! They are the worst creatures ever in this world. I promised Bii that I gotta realize my own problem. The problem now is them. They just black listed me for nothing. And do so many things behind me. I just don't want Bii to get stuck in between us. I acted like nothing happen.
There will be a lot of things to be heard cause they saw Han coming out from my room. Already saw a post in Facebook. And I can't believe it, it's from Sue. The big mouth again. I tried to forget bout her betrayal cause of Bii but I just couldn't. She's the next thick face.
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